Why the fuss?

Hey there gorgeous people! welcome hope you had a great week, happy friyaay😎. I talk about healing a lot, its such a huge deal for me and today I want to share why. So this week I had a couple of decisions to make, the kind that affects every other thing and all. I was struggling with this because it was such a familiar scenario, it was deja vuish...like I know what this is, I've been here before and I know exactly which part this is and how this will end. I mean if it looks like a duck and quacks like one then its a duck, period. There was nothing new to think about and I just did not want to give it any more time so it was obvious the decision I wanted to make. I was allowing my past experience to be the lens through which I examined the present challenge, essentially limiting myself.

I understand healing to be the process of unlearning, learning and relearning mindsets, patterns and experiences. It is seeking out understanding, searching for higher truths which ultimately set the mind, body and soul free. It is what equips a person with the capacity to give and receive. You cannot give what you do not have and without understanding you could receive anything whether its good for you or not. Healing allows discernment, it helps you see what is truly good for you and what is not. Brokenness incapacitates a person, you could desire something with your whole heart and it will always remain out of your reach.

I find that healing is not a popular conversation, we would rather talk about anything else really, good and exciting things, I mean happy vibes only. Talks about healing are not easy to have because like everything worth having in life it comes at a price. It requires a level of vulnerability, self examination, separation and periods of waiting. The examination part is just looking within, what is it that wounded you, its looking into the mirror and seeing yourself and acknowledging that something is wrong and taking time to identify that something.

once the something is identified then I would say separate. Stay away from it, if its thought patterns, people, places, memories that won't let you be, replace them healthier things and people. The last part is the most difficult part I would say. Waiting is never easy. Healing is not an event, days ,weeks and years of trauma and pain don't just disappear over night , be patient with yourself. Once you make the decision to heal, everyday you wake up the universe will put your resolve to the test. Once you are on this journey whatever you are healing from will come at you relentlessly, I have learnt that once you identify the wound you will recognize the symptom when it shows up, only then can you deal with it one day, one symptom at a time. Pace yourself.

I so strongly believe that it is impossible to live a fulfilled life outside of healing. The only way to be our authentic selves, unapologetically, comfortably, uniquely us, the only way to allow growth, to fulfil destiny, to be strong for others, to understand other people, to have compassion, to give comfort is if we are healed humans. Broken people break people, wounded people bleed on others whether they know it or not. How then do you know whether you need healing? well, one way is to listen to how you speak to and about yourself and other people, out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. If you use past experiences as a reference point, if there's something you cannot seem to forgive, you in my opinion, have got homework to do. If you seem to be stuck in cycles. circumstances could be different, people could be different but the outcome is always the same, there is work to be done. If fear is a primary factor that you deal with every time you have a decision to make, you just get so scared and fearful so many what ifs, kuna kazi my friend. This list, I have to say, is in no way conclusive.

The journey may be difficult, but oh! it is worth it. the way you see life changes, there is so much positive energy, there is a different kind of wisdom, there's a peace that endures, a new person emerges on this side and she is strong and grounded. By no means am I insinuating that there is perfection here, far from it. life doesn't stop for anybody, challenges still come, mistakes are made big and small, there are good, bad and horrible days, healing continues day by day but there is a grace that flows, there is growth and fruitfulness, a stillness of the soul, a quiet and calm spirit.

Healing is available, but you have to choose it. for me, God is my source, my center. He has walked with me and honestly sometimes carried me when I wasn't feeling it like that. His presence has kept me company, it wasn't so lonely and boring hehe, He didn't give up on me. He can do the same thing and more for you too. And once you get that healing remember to guard your heart, do not re-contaminate the safe spaces you have worked so hard to create, because it comes at a price.

May you have the courage to choose healing,

From my heart to yours,

Stay safe.

see you next post ❤❤❤